Thursday, October 10, 2013

Tricks and Treats Thursday

Today was a much better day than yesterday! For starters, I was able to sleep -- uninterrupted by nurses -- until 7:55! That hasn't happened since my stay here began. Hallelujah! Once enjoying a casual, slow start, I even got dressed in "real" clothes today (jeans and all!). What a fabulous feeling.
real clothes and a growing belly!!

Today's tricks:
Once Zsu Zsu and Aunt Aubrey arrived, we spent most of our day on a ridiculous, incredibly entertaining app: Akinator. Let me tell you, it was worth every penny of that $1.99! You think of any fictional character and it asks you yes or no questions. Simple enough. But good golly did it provide hours of entertainment! We were thinking of the most absurd, minor characters we could...and he was getting them all!
how did it know the Indian from the Indian in the Cupboard?!
even Paka was amazed
Today's treats:
Sleeping in
McDonald's for breakfast
Paka showed up for lunch (and got just as much entertainment out of the silly app as we did)
Real clothes
Homemade chili for dinner!
Yummy fruit from the fresh market
A nurse that actually read my chart BEFORE coming into my room to meet me
Candy corn
A phone call to my hospital room from our fabulous fertility doctor who heard we had been admitted....calling to see if there was anything she could do!
Your dad singing to you two and seeing his face light up when you guys respond to his voice and begin moving and kicking like crazy!

I'm so thankful for a better day and happier spirits today. We prayerfully await tomorrow's ultrasound and trust God has more good news for us.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Woe Is Me Wednesday

I haven't complained much. I don't really have a right to complain - you two are still safe and healthy. We agreed at the start of this hospital stay, "whatever it takes." So, that's what I'm doing. Whatever it takes with a smile on my face...the majority of the time. Today was one of those days where we were all just feeling a little sluggish. Mine started last night with a terrible migraine.

Background info:
The rotating of nurses is typically one at 7 AM  and a new one at 7 PM. It was working perfectly. However, Monday and Tuesday, I got a new nurse around 3 PM and 11 PM. So instead of monitoring fetal heart tones twice a day, each nurse would monitor at start of their shift (even though doctor's orders call for a twice a day. I'm starting to doubt my new nurses even read my chart, especially when they ask, "You haven't had any contractions have you?") I say this to explain the fun in my evening last night

At 9 last night I decided to try and sleep off the migraine. Since our stay here the nurses have said, "If you're sleeping, we won't bother you" (unless it's a nurse from the lab to draw blood...who tend to roll in between 5 and 6 AM, fun times!). So I snuggled in and fell asleep. At 11 PM I heard a nurse come in and ask, "Is she sleeping?" and your dad nodded yes (oh how I love him!). So, out they went, for what I assumed was the night. 

Wrong. 12:40 AM all my lights were turned on and I hear, "Hi Courtney, we came in earlier and you were sleeping. Thought we'd try again now." Ah yes, that makes perfect sense. Why would I be sleeping after midnight if I was already asleep at 11?

She proceeded to do all kinds of routine check ups, fetal heart tones, you name it. I tried to fall back asleep once she left, but ten minutes later, in walks the assistant flipping on all the lights again (your poor father!). She chipperly announced, "Just here to get your blood pressure and temperature." Of course, it would make no sense for the nurse to have done that during her thorough exam. 

The assistant then proceeds to have a conversation with the half-sleeping, exhausted pregnant woman. And here is where I almost lost my sleep deprived mind...
"Twins, huh?"
"Yep."
"Bet that was a shock." not really "Do twins run in your family?" 
"Nope."
"Do you know what they are?"
"Two boys."
"Oh what a shame. You hate to hear that. You always hope for one of each when you have twins." Um, excuse me?! I'm not even supposed to be pregnant. We are over the moon with our little boys and so grateful to be given these precious lives! Who says that??
Instead I gave an awkward chuckle, "Yeah, my husband is a twin and he has a sister."
"Well see, they do run in your family." Mh-hmm. Fraternal twins is passed down through the female side. So the fact that my mother-in-law had twins and now I'm having twins is completely related (not!). Not to mention the fact that IVF was involved. Glad to see you're in the medical field, on the baby floor, and understand the workings of the reproductive system. 
Instead, "Mh-hmm." 
"Alright well you let us know if you need anything." Yep, to go to sleep. Thanks!
"Ok. Thank you."

And out she went. Unfortunately, I was so thrown off by her calling my two miracles "a shame," that I was then up for the next hour and a half. 

Four hours later, around 6:30, I woke up to snuggle with your dad before he left to go to work. As I began to doze back off, at 6:50 a nurse loudly comes in, "Hello? Need anything, Courtney??" Why she didn't wait to see if I was sleeping I don't know. But by this point, I was beyond annoyed. It had been a long night; what I needed was to be left alone and to sleep. 

At 7:10 the assistant was back to recheck my vitals. 

At 7:20 I decided to give up when the nurse returned to check fetal heart tones again. 

By the time my sister and mom arrived at 10 AM, I was exhausted. My shower hadn't helped to wake me up and I just felt blah. Lucky for me, Aunt Aubrey was feeling a little blah too. So we enjoyed feeding each other's "woe is me" attitude. Poor Zsu Zsu, she came in happy as can be, but probably left feeling blah too!

Still, even though energy was a little low today, I count it a good day. I have great family who come and visit me everyday. When they leave they take our laundry, check on our house, get our mail...you name it. You both are still well and healthy. We are now almost halfway through week 24! So, I may be a little sluggish today, but in the words of your father, it's still, "one more day!" So, we celebrate that.
Went to the bathroom, leaving your dad alone for 30 seconds, I came back to find a visitor had snuck in...

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Taboo-Torture-Too Sweet-Too Cute Tuesday

an afternoon playing Taboo
 
tortured Zsu Zsu with Christmas carols

too sweet -- super thoughtful care package from family
two, too cute pea hats...next on the list a green pea pod for a pinterest inspired picture of my two peas in a pod!
pinterst inspiration!

Monday, October 7, 2013

Meditation-Mis-Matched-Massage Monday

new socks from my momma...loads of silly mismatched socks!
loving my massages!
attempting to meditate
Photographs by the one and only, Zsu Zsu



Sunday, October 6, 2013

24 Weeks



You're Not Alone

What a beautiful Sunday morning. While it is dark, rainy, and gloomy outside, today I am singing God's praises for another glorious day.

My Sunday began at 2:30 AM with a clap of thunder and flood alert on my phone that awoke me. After the grumbling of being awake, I soon realized what day it was...Sunday! 24 weeks! Since I couldn't fall back asleep, I took to my usual Sunday morning ritual...just a few hours early! I got on all my pregnancy apps and began reading about the landmarks we will hit in this 24th week. It's amazing that two and a half weeks ago, doctors were preparing us to say goodbye to you two, yet, here you are, still fighting and staying strong!

Around 6:30 I was awoken again, this time by your daddy crawling into my hospital bed! We enjoyed a half hour or so of cuddling together in the quiet morning. By 8:15, the hustle and bustle of hospital life had already began, and your dad was out the door to run home to take care of some things there.

I have so enjoyed sitting in the dark this morning, listening to my music, thanking God for all He has done already for us, and doing some reading (it's hard for me to adjust to this "no church on Sunday" thing). While sitting alone in my room, the song "You're Not Alone," came on the radio. How perfect!

"It was the sweetest voice that called my name saying: You're not alone, For I am here. Let me wipe away your every tear. My love I've never left your side; I have seen you through the darkest night and I'm the one who's loved you all your life. All your life. Faithful and true, forever, oh My love will carry you."

I am so thankful that we are not at all alone in this journey. I am thankful that God knows exactly where this journey is going and that He is the one in control. As I type these words, singing along, I am thankful to see my belly jumping in the glow of the computer light, as you two kick to the sounds (hopefully because you are enjoying my singing and not already telling me to hush!). Though this pregnancy has taken an unexpected turn, I am still so incredibly grateful for all we have in our lives. Things don't always go as planned, and we don't always know how they will end, but we are beyond blessed with a beautiful life and soon-to-be (but not too soon!) two beautiful boys. I am just beyond amazed with the way God works and how perfectly everything always seems to fall into place. I am so grateful that I am not alone. I don't know how you would get through a situation like this without a hope in something more powerful than ourselves or doctors. Today is a beautiful day.


Friday, October 4, 2013

Weekly Recap

Well, my first week in the hospital was spent in a medicated daze. This week has found me more "active." Thanks to my fabulous mother and sister, we created daily themes! Here's a quick look at my week in pics! We are so blessed to have had so many different friends and family members each day, helping to keep our spirits lifted. Keep fighting, Little Ones, you are doing great!
Massage Monday
Tangled-Toenail Tuesdays
Wordin' Wheelchair Rollin' Wednesday
TLC Thursday
Fun Friday


13 days and 12 nights in the hospital...he's incredible - been here for every one of them!