You're Not Alone

What a beautiful Sunday morning. While it is dark, rainy, and gloomy outside, today I am singing God's praises for another glorious day.

My Sunday began at 2:30 AM with a clap of thunder and flood alert on my phone that awoke me. After the grumbling of being awake, I soon realized what day it was...Sunday! 24 weeks! Since I couldn't fall back asleep, I took to my usual Sunday morning ritual...just a few hours early! I got on all my pregnancy apps and began reading about the landmarks we will hit in this 24th week. It's amazing that two and a half weeks ago, doctors were preparing us to say goodbye to you two, yet, here you are, still fighting and staying strong!

Around 6:30 I was awoken again, this time by your daddy crawling into my hospital bed! We enjoyed a half hour or so of cuddling together in the quiet morning. By 8:15, the hustle and bustle of hospital life had already began, and your dad was out the door to run home to take care of some things there.

I have so enjoyed sitting in the dark this morning, listening to my music, thanking God for all He has done already for us, and doing some reading (it's hard for me to adjust to this "no church on Sunday" thing). While sitting alone in my room, the song "You're Not Alone," came on the radio. How perfect!

"It was the sweetest voice that called my name saying: You're not alone, For I am here. Let me wipe away your every tear. My love I've never left your side; I have seen you through the darkest night and I'm the one who's loved you all your life. All your life. Faithful and true, forever, oh My love will carry you."

I am so thankful that we are not at all alone in this journey. I am thankful that God knows exactly where this journey is going and that He is the one in control. As I type these words, singing along, I am thankful to see my belly jumping in the glow of the computer light, as you two kick to the sounds (hopefully because you are enjoying my singing and not already telling me to hush!). Though this pregnancy has taken an unexpected turn, I am still so incredibly grateful for all we have in our lives. Things don't always go as planned, and we don't always know how they will end, but we are beyond blessed with a beautiful life and soon-to-be (but not too soon!) two beautiful boys. I am just beyond amazed with the way God works and how perfectly everything always seems to fall into place. I am so grateful that I am not alone. I don't know how you would get through a situation like this without a hope in something more powerful than ourselves or doctors. Today is a beautiful day.