Sunday? Tuesday?? Friday?!

Deep breaths. Perfect timing. Deep breaths. Perfect timing.

Sunday was probably my most difficult day since beginning the homecoming countdown. There had been possible discharge dates ("before the new year," "by the new year," "by the end of the weekend," etc.), but never had we been told, "You will be going home on ____."

Sunday was our first official discharge date.

So, I anticipated it being a bummer of a day. However, "Tuesday, you will be going home," had already been stated. How perfect! Your 7 week birthday. It just made sense. So, I woke up Sunday excited to see you, knowing just two more days and you'd be home!!

That quickly changed. You both destated once again. I was so devastated. I just didn't understand. And so what do we do when we don't understand why things don't seem to be going the way we want? We blame someone else! I was so angry with the doctor who was on Saturday. We had been told we could keep your beds at an incline and just buy a wedge for your beds at home. When we came in Saturday, your beds were flat. I quickly pointed this out to the nurse, concerned it would cause a destat. Unfortunately, the orders had been changed and she couldn't raise you. Sure enough...you had a destat that night.

I was thankful our "December Doctor" was on Sunday, as he saw more eye-to-eye with our "January Doctor," and had your beds inclined again.

Monday morning I tentatively waited to hear your report...thank God, no destats! So, we go back to the 5 day countdown and pray you make it without any destats.

As bad as Sunday was, that's how great today was for me. Already I can see why Friday is a much better tentative date than Tuesday. (I pray this is the last adjusted discharge date, but if not, I will trust the new date is even better than Friday.) But here is why Friday is better than tomorrow:

1. Obscenely cold temps! We couldn't bring your sweet little bodies home in such freezing weather! And check out Friday's weather - a much better day for you two!

2. We have yet to take the infant CPR class since I had been hospitalized so early in the pregnancy. Last night I got online to sign up. The only date offered in the entire month of January? Wednesday, January 8th! Had you come home tomorrow, we wouldn't have been able to go. So now, we can take our class and bring you boys home well educated!

3. God has a better plan than we can make, so we trust each of these set backs! I know He will bring you home when you are ready for home; when you can be successful at home. You just have a very eager mommy who is ready to snuggle you whenever I want! And don't let him fool you, your daddy is just as eager too! I walked into our bedroom last night to see this...

We've had your bassinets ready to go, but yesterday he moved them into our bedroom. He is ready for you boys to be sleeping in them too!

We are so excited to bring you two home!! Could this be the week?! Ryan, you seem a little concerned...

...but don't worry, we sure are ready!