Let Faith Arise

When I first began writing to you, it was my therapy. It was evidence of my faith that I knew one day you would exist, no matter how difficult and dark the journey to get to you might become.

Recently, it has served as a memory-keeper, a way for me to document our lives so that one day, we will be able to remember all of these wonderful, small moments.

Our "Let faith arise" theme is now even bigger than what it first began - which was our hope that our faith would lead to you, a child / children. As our lives seem to be on the verge of yet another journey, we again hold on to our faith knowing God has everything in His hands. In the moment of any challenge / new adventure, it is sometimes difficult to see past what's right in front of us. It is difficult to see past what seems like the black and white facts. We don't have the big picture though that God already has which is why we trust Him! We must have faith and know completely that God knows exactly what He's doing and where our lives are headed.

There seem to be so many possibilities, and yet so many unknowns for our family in the very near future. And while we don't know the details yet, we are choosing to let our faith guide our decisions.

I was offered a special position on my school's administration / leadership team yesterday. And while this has always been a dream of mine, it means my part-time position will no longer exist next year. So, my options are: back to work full-time and putting you boys in the care of someone else, doing what I've always dreamed of career-wise or staying-at-home full time, doing what I've always dreamed of personally.

Following my heart, this would be such an easy decision - I have years to develop my career. I only a precious few more years with you boys until you go off to school yourself. However, financially, this part-time job provided just the perfect amount of income to help us out.

I was at war with myself all day yesterday - I could not escape the thoughts running through my head. One minute I was convinced I would stay-at-home, the next absolutely sure that I needed to take this job to help provide for our family. Together, the three of us took a nice long walk with God! We sang and prayed to my Let Faith Arise playlist asking God to guide our decision and to calm our souls and minds with this choice.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So, we are approaching this decision like any other we have made in our lives - praying and trusting that we are following God's lead and that He will continue to provide for our family.