Our God is Greater

Well, today was the day I had been dreading since May when I first heard I had to get this test done. Today was the day I had feared and worried about even more intensely since last Monday when I made the appointment. And today was the day when so many prayers were answered! Today was the day that we got one step closer to you!

I had made the mistake of reading, researching, and watching video clips of this procedure I was going to have done. I had heard: "worse than giving birth to twins without an epidural," or "I wouldn't wish this test on my worst enemy...definitely a 10 on the pain scale." So, I, of course, was petrified!

Well, I knew I had several things in my favor. I had God on my side and I had several people praying for me. When I was called back to waiting room #2, I was told Keal and my mom couldn't come back. At first, I was really upset about this, but I think it turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Being on my own, I was forced to stay strong. I couldn't crumble and panic. I could do this.

When I got back to the room, I did have a moment of, "Okay, I change my mind. I'm leaving and not doing this." But the nurse and doctor were just remarkable. They were both so kind to me and were sure to explain everything that they were doing.

Now, I would be lying if I said it was a walk in the park. But...it really wasn't that bad at all! For most of the procedure, I was all smiles and chatting away with both the nurse and doctor. There were moments of pain, yes, but it really was nothing to be so worried and stressed about. (Isn't that always the case though when you have God with you! It always turns out fine.)

I had also read that this test is just as bad psychologically as it is physically. And, thank God, I found that to be oh so false too. I can see where people would feel that way. This is the first truly invasive, painful procedure in many fertility treatments and procedures.  It is the first true procedure that reminds you, I can't have a baby on my own and we have a long road ahead of us. However, I had none of that today! Instead, I left the hospital almost skipping with joy! This procedure was the next needed step to get to you. And so, I will willingly take those steps knowing that at the end of this journey is one of the greatest joys I will ever know.  It is you. And I am so thankful that I can make such a powerful statement because I know it is only because of my faith in God that I can say it so confidently.

And, that's not the best part! Aside from the test not being that bad at all, the results came back fine! No surgery will be needed and we are getting even closer to you. So, until that day, we will continue praying and patiently waiting until God is ready to give you to us! And we are so very excited for that wonderful day!

When Keal and I got into the car on the drive home, Our God is Greater, was playing on the radio. And aint that the truth! I truly believe that had I gone into this test alone, without my God, this day would have been much different. Whether more painful, whether more depressing, whether negative results, or a combination of all three I don't know. And frankly, I don't care. But all I know is that this day was just perfect all because my God is greater!!