It's is often said that before you judge someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. I really wish the people in my daily life could just walk one day in my shoes, even Keal doesn't really quite get what I go through on a daily basis.
We are less than two weeks away from Christmas and just the thought of it sends my heart racing. I really don't want to have to deal with it. I was supposed to have you by this Christmas, and worse case scenario, if we didn't have you, we'd be pregnant. So to have neither, it is just so hard to deal with right now.
Friday we got together with some of Keal's family. Being around the babies, their toys, and pregnant bellies is just too much for me to handle right now. So the thought of Christmas can truly almost give me a panic attack. I really wish I could just stay home this Christmas, keep my door closed, and pretend it's just another day.
It probably doesn't make sense to anyone. People want to say to stop thinking about myself, suck it up and deal with it. And I wish I could say, just walk one day in my shoes.
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