Happy Father's Day

For the first time in two and a half years, I finally feel myself completely happy with a holiday! For the first time, I don't have a pain / emptiness within me. I can celebrate this Father's Day, knowing that next year, I will have you two sweet miracles here with us celebrating your dad! I have so much to celebrate and be thankful for this Father's Day.

Today started by Keal waking me up. Now, he should know this could be a very dangerous move! But his first words were, "Honey, I have breakfast." Groggily, I rolled over to find myself faced with breakfast in bed!

I had really planned on celebrating Keal this morning. While he may not be an official father yet, I did think he deserved a "soon-to-be-father" celebration. Keal has been such a rock and constant for me in this journey. So much of what we have been through has effected me directly. I take the shots. I deal with the hormone changes. I deal with the physical pain. My body deals with the probing and testing at each doctor's appointments. Yet through it all, Keal has been there every step of the way! Keal knows when I'm hurting. He knows when I have my bad days. Yet never has he complained to me about his own pain or the own struggles he has felt on this journey. He has been my constant, selflessly carrying me along on this journey. And even today, he continued to show his selflessness and love for others by making me breakfast in bed.

I am so blessed that this is the man I will spend the rest of my life with. And I am so excited that he will be the man you two call Dad! I know Keal is going to be the most wonderful father and I cannot wait to see him take on this new role in life.

Secondly, I am so thankful for my own father. I have been so blessed to have the most incredible father you could ever wish for (you will adore your wonderful grandpa!). He has always been an excellent role model of the importance of loving God and loving others. He has taught me the importance of serving God through his own walk with the Lord. I am grateful for his unconditional love and the sacrifices he has made to put his family first in his life. It is my hope and prayer that you will love and respect your own father as much as I do my own.

 And finally, today I celebrate my Heavenly Father. Today's assignment in church was to write a letter to God. Here was my letter:

Dear God,
Thank you for being the most perfect teacher over my life, but especially over the past few years. You have taught me how to trust. You have taught me how to let go of control. You have taught me how to have more faith than I thought possible. You have taught me to hold on to my hope in my darkest of days and rescued me from my pain. You have taught me to be grateful for what I have and to trust and believe that greater things are still yet to come amidst my pain.

I thank you Lord for these trials because they have brought me closer to You than I've ever been before. I thank you for the sweet miracles you have given us. I am so excited and honored that I get to use their precious lives to shout your goodness! Thank you for being a beautiful and most perfect example of what a father's love should be.

Today has been a beautiful Father's Day celebrating the three most important men in my life. I am grateful for each of their love, selflessness, and support. I have such a beautiful life and am beyond blessed for all that I have been given.