What a Difference A Year Makes

Over two years ago, Keal and I decided we were ready for children. We excitedly entered into this journey, ready to start growing our family. No one could have ever prepared us for what was to come.

More than six months into our journey, we realized something wasn't right and I headed into my first of many doctor appointments. After two different appointments filled with countless tests, I finally met with my normal doctor's assistant. It was in this appointment that I was told I was infertile and was going to at least need medication to assist us in becoming parents, and possibly even more drastic treatments.

From there, we began the up and downs on the crazy pills! After five months of the pills not working at all (and now one year into our journey), my doctor told me there was nothing further she could do for us. It was time to seek the advice of a fertility specialist.

After three months of searching for a doctor that would be right for us, on June 28th, 2012, Keal and I nervously stepped into our fertility specialist's office. And from here, began a struggle and challenge that no couple can truly prepare for. From there, exactly one year ago today, began the constant appointments, the probing and tests, the pricks of countless needles, the ups and downs of the hormone treatments, and the emotional highest of highs and lowest of lows.

When Keal and I reflected back on 2012, we both referred to it as one of our most difficult years: as a couple and as individuals. We were tried and pushed in ways we never thought we'd be strong enough to overcome.

Now, here we are, exactly one year to the date of the start of our more intensive fertility treatment. Today, we entered our specialist's office for the last time. What a bittersweet day it has been.

From the moment we entered the office one year ago, we knew this was the place for us. Every single person in that office made us feel important. Every single person made us feel like they genuinely cared about us and our journey to you. I thank God that we found such a caring and personal place to help us on this difficult journey.

Today was no different. We had our final ultrasound and I have to say, it was the most magnificent experience of my life! You were both there, again doubled in size. Your heartbeats were strong and healthy. But for the first time you actually resembled babies. It was just breath taking. We saw all four of your tiny little hands and your four tiny feet. I must say, they were the most beautiful hands and feet I have ever seen (I may be a little biased though!). And as if seeing this wasn't enough, you both gave a little wiggle and wave!! Fabulous - it was just fabulous!

Baby Miracle A: from 16.2 mm to 32.6 mm

Baby Miracle B: from 15.1 mm to 30.1 mm

Group shot - you are the most beautiful babies!

After such a wonderful appointment, we reluctantly said our goodbyes. We hugged our doctors, nurses, and office managers goodbye. They sent us off with baby magazines, pregnancy magazines, and the most sincerest well wishes.

Today was the most perfect ending to a roller coaster year. I left the office with my heart full of joy and gratitude. I thank God for this doctor's office and the wonderful people in it. I thank God for our wonderful family and their support. But today, most importantly, I thank God for you two, healthy, wiggly babies! You are perfection and I cannot wait to hold you both in my arms!