Your First Concert

Well, my little ones, already you are getting lots of great experiences! This week you went to your first ever concert. Long before I started writing to you, long before my Let Faith Arise Playlist began to form, at the very start of our journey, I had heard a song...

I was driving home from the appointment where I had been told I was infertile and was going to need to seek additional help. I was in such pain and discouragement. I had made most of the drive home in silence, crying and wallowing in self-pity. A mile away from our neighborhood, I turned on a local Christian radio station. A song I had heard countless times, and loved, was playing. Through falling tears, I began belting out the words to this song, praising God for all the good in my life. Though I was mourning the difficult news we had just received, I was immediately reminded of all the good God had done for me. I was immediately reminded that through it all He had never left me and never would. I began praising my living savior in the midst of my newest storm.

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You 

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

And through it all, though there were days that were harder than others, I tried to praise God in all of the storms we faced. I tried to stay focused on the fact that I knew God had a plan for us and that I needed to trust that His plan was better than ours.

Monday night as I stood at that concert singing these same words, my hand on the two of you, I felt like we had come full circle. It was almost two and a half years ago that I sang these words through my tears, driving home from that dreaded doctor's appointment. It was almost two and a half years ago when I had gone from such self-pity to feeling immediately rescued by such powerful words. And here I stood, almost two and a half years later, still strong in my conviction, and still praising my God through all of life's storms. As I stood there singing, I was praising God that He got us through this storm and that you will both soon be in my life. As I stood there singing, I was praising God for the storms I know that are sure to ensue through the rest of my life. Because through it all, He will never leave my side. And no matter what we face, we will praise Him in the storm!