Oh, The Difference a Year Makes

Exactly one year ago today, I paced the carpet in my classroom as my phone finally rang at 2:39.

Exactly one year ago today, I found out after months of doing shots, our first attempt at IUI had failed. 

Exactly one year ago today, the two week wait was brought to a screeching halt as our hopes and dreams of being parents seemed to be caving in around us. 

Exactly one year ago today, I found out how differently your daddy and I grieve. This sent us into probably the most difficult month of our relationship as we each mourned - in our own, very different ways - the loss of something we never really had. 

Exactly one year ago, I questioned why God was putting us through these trials. Didn't he hear our cries?

Now, exactly one year later, I lay here in my hospital bed, you two flip-flopping like crazy, so incredibly thankful for so much. 

I am thankful for the incredibly difficult road it took us to get pregnant. It has given me a perspective and appreciation I probably would have never had. 

I am thankful for our difficult journey because it has done nothing but reassure me that your daddy is the only man for me. He has been my rock through this all. He is by my side each and every day, bringing me strength when I am drained. 

And as odd as it may seem, I am thankful for the struggle of this pregnancy. This pregnancy alone was a miracle. And now, my Little Ones, you continue to shock doctors as you prove to the world that you truly are miracles. I know you will continue to show what miracles you are once you are born too - I believe with complete faith, that I await the birth of you two healthy babies!

I would have never thought a year ago, that this November, God would have answered our prayers....twice....with your two precious lives. I am beyond blessed and thankful for this beautiful life and cannot wait to welcome you to it!