I'm Coming Home pt 1

"I'm coming home, I'm coming home; tell the world I'm coming home!"

But before I get ahead of myself, let's rewind to a few days ago...

Wednesday morning I held my breath as your daddy called the NICU. We had always made it two days into the five day countdown, but never could quite get over that third day hump. I knew if we made it through Tuesday night, you'd make it five days. You just had to!

We were beyond ecstatic when they said you made it through the night without any destats. We were told to bring the car seats in so that you could take your car seat test! This was all getting so real.

 

Thursday afternoon I went through some of the discharge information with your nurse so that if you made it home Friday, it wasn't quite so overwhelming. I was taught how to give you your vitamins and other home care.

Once I got home Thursday I was in a complete swirl! Buying hand-sanitizer for the house, installing car seats, picking out your "going home" and picture outfits, deciding which blankets to bring to keep you warm, etc. I was a mad-man! In the back of my mind though, I knew we still had to get through Thursday night. I was a nervous wreck.

We called to check on you around 11:00. All was good so far.

I woke up at 2:50 to pump for 15 quick minutes. This was my last night of good sleep. Yep. I was up until 4:45 tossing and turning. I prayed you'd be allowed to come home today. I wondered if we would be able to take care of you, would you be safe sleeping, how would you do with feedings at home...you name it, I thought it!! So much for one final night's sleep.

Your daddy and I were up by 6:30, just waiting for the time to call the day shift nurse (she comes on at 7, but needs some time to review your chart). We figured 8:00 we'd call. By 7:24, I was practically throwing up with excitement / nerves. We had to call. I frantically ran out of the room. I couldn't take hearing bad news. You had to come home!

I soon heard your daddy, "Awesome. So you think around lunch time?"

Tears filled my eyes. Our prayers have been answered. We have been blessed with you two beautiful boys. God has given us healthy, happy boys. And finally, we will be united as a family of 4 at home. I am so beyond excited for today and cannot wait for this new chapter to begin. One year ago, I was beginning to reach hopelessness. I was doubting if we'd ever become parents. Today, I rejoice that we serve a living God who heard our cries and answered them twice!! Ryan and Wiley we love you dearly. You have wonderful lives ahead of you and I'm in awe that I get to be the one who helps guide you through this life. January 10th will go down as one of the greatest days of my life.