Zone Defense

Since coming home, your father and I have been in man-to-man defense: each of us taking one of you per feeding, diaper change, etc. If someone started crying during that particular feeding cycle, we'd ask, "Is that your baby?" Each new feeding we would rotate so that you are both "my baby." Our routine was pretty solid and life wasn't nearly as hectic as we had anticipated.

Well, shifting to nursing exclusively (yay!), as well as your daddy returning to work, I am now faced with a new challenge. We have shifted from a man-to-man defense, to your momma playing zone defense! It is now you two boys to me! 

As your dad left Monday morning for work I felt a pride thinking, "yeah I can do this; I don't need any help," as well as a small voice whispering, "good lord how are you going to handle two babies all day by yourself?"

Well boys, there were moments from this week that sent me into a full sweat as you both screamed at the same time needing fed. There were moments from this week of exhaustion as it seemed like you'd never both nap at the same time again (everyone says "sleep when they sleep." Ha! Not with twins - you rarely sleep for long at the same time). But mostly there were moments this week that I treasured of the three of us just snuggling together. I am quickly learning how to manage you two alone. I am trying to master new tricks to soothe both of you when screaming at the same time. All in all, things are going well. We even mastered getting ready for the doctor's alone (mind you I said "getting ready;" we aren't quite ready to go out alone - Zsu Zsu accompanied us!). You boys had your third - and praise God, final - eye exam! All checked out normal, so there's no more need for those terrible tests. We celebrated by surprising Dad and Paka at work - your first, non-doctor related, outings!

I am just loving life so completely right now - even through your 3 AM tantrums, through my exhaustion and sleep deprivation, and through the challenges of motherhood. I love it all! You boys are just mine and your daddy's whole world. We never knew we could love you little boys so much.