My sister-in-law is again pregnant with baby number two. I am so ashamed by my reaction because there really was no happiness. All I could think of was you and how unfair it seems that others are getting baby two and three, why can't I have just my one? And then I realized for the next nine months, that's all we'll be talking about at family-get-togethers. How am I going to be around them? How will I keep it together and act happy when inside I am so devastated.
I am repeating Keal's faith verse over and over again - this is where we're supposed to be - reminding myself our day will come...but until it comes, days like today make it so hard.
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