Feeling Down

Unfortunately, today was a pity-party-kind-of-day. And sadly, it all started when I got on facebook early this morning. I should've learned by now, facebook is just a time-waster and a place to find discontent with one's own life. Which is silly, especially when I have such a great life!

Anyway, I got online to find a comment one of my dear friends posted on my best friend's wall.

Sidebar: My best friend found out she was pregnant two months before we started trying, my other friend told me she was pregnant a week after we started trying. Back then this was exciting news because it was only a matter of a few months before we would be pregnant too! Three friends with their three babies.  Sadly, that's not quite how God wanted it. So, still three friends and three babies (because one had twins), but I'm still baby-less.

Anyway, she had posted that they had got their zoo membership and was wondering if my best friend had her's yet too. They will be taking some trips together this summer. Now, a good friend should react with: how wonderful that they have each other, what fun they'll have together, etc. But, when you're feeling sorry for yourself, it's easy not to react that way! Instead, I reacted with tears. I was supposed to be apart of these outings too. These were supposed to be my play-dates too. I was devastated.

So, I spent the day sulking, moping, and occasionally crying. And while I know these emotions are all part of our journey to you, I wish we could just fast-forward through these downs. But since we can't, I will continue to wait and pray for you. And until we meet you, I will continue to remind myself to "Let Faith Arise."