A Morning of Thanks

Well, today is the day that we take another step closer to you. We have been waiting for this doctor's appointment for quite some time now and today it is finally here. I spent the first half of my morning with a stomachache, anxious, and full of nerves. But now, while I sit here in my kitchen, listening to my "Let Faith Arise," playlist, looking out at the beautiful clear skies, I have decided to spend it, not worrying, but in a spirit of thankfulness. While this was not the journey to you I had planned, and while it has been difficult and trying, there are so many things in my life that are wonderful and good. So, while I want you here right now, I am going to thank God for what I do have now and know that when His plan is perfected, we will have you.

Things I am thankful for this morning:

• My wonderful husband and my best friend. Someone to spend the rest of my life with loving, trusting, laughing, and growing closer to. I am thankful for the support he has shown me already through this journey. I am thankful for the fact that he can put up with the ups and downs of this journey. I am thankful that he knows when I need him to just listen to me spew or when I need him to just hold me while I cry. I am thankful that God gave me the most perfect man for me to spend my life with.
• A beautiful home to share with my husband. I look around at all that God has provided us with and I am astounded. We have a perfect life together and I know it is because of God we have all that we have.
• Two jobs that are both just so right for us right now and where we are in life. Two jobs that encompass the passions we have in life. Yesterday, I walked into my school to make copies for this doctor's appointment and walked through the cafeteria where the day-care program was taking place. Being able to see four of my previous students' sweet faces was just a wonderful start to my day. Their faces lit up and they ran across to hug me and say hello. There is just nothing like the embrace of a child. I thank God for those sweet, comforting hugs yesterday! They were just what I needed. I love my job so very much, and the lives I have come in contact with, and the way we have changed one another's lives!
• I am so very thankful for texts from dear friends telling me they are praying for me, Keal, and you today; for texts and phone calls from my sweet family members. I know no one can say they understand completely what we are going through, but I know they feel our pain too. The looks in their eyes, the compassion in their voice, and the comfort in their hugs, I know they are taking this journey to you along with us. I am so thankful for the people that God has put in Keal and my life. I am thankful for the sincerity and concern they have shown for us through this journey. I am thankful for the prayers I know they are continually lifting up to God. It is through their strength that gets us through this journey. On the days when I feel so down and discouraged, I know these family members and friends are lifting their voices up, even when I don't have the voice to speak myself, to God.
• Finally, I am thankful for this appointment today. Yes, it has caused me some nervousness. But I know this appointment will bring us one step closer to you. Will we get all the answers we want today? Probably not. Will we definitely stay with this doctor? We will find out. Today is just the beginning of our long journey to you. But, I know this appointment, one way or another, is a step closer to you. So I thank God that we could meet with a doctor today. I thank God for whatever news it is we find out today because that news is all apart of God's plan for us and for you So, I go to this appointment today with an open heart, an open mind, and a spirit full of praise.

 Thank you, Lord, for what you've done for me.
Thank you, Lord, for what you're doing now.
Thank you, Lord, for ev'ry little thing.
Thank you, Lord, for you made me sing.