One Step Closer

Today, I had a doctor's appointment, and I have to be honest, part of me thought she might tell me we would soon be meeting you. Unfortunately, that was not what God had planned for us. As I was sitting in the doctor's office, waiting to speak with her, I could hear her next door with another patient....another, pregnant, patient. As the appointment went on, I could hear this woman's baby's heartbeat. As I sat alone in that room, I couldn't help but wonder, why that wasn't your heartbeat I was hearing.

I keep reminding myself, God has a plan and you will soon be in our lives. Hopefully, in just a short moment of time, this pain will all just be a faint memory that is overshadowed by the joy you will some day bring us and the praises we sing to God.

We (okay, I) have a rough week ahead of us with tests I am dreading and more doctor appointments with specialists. And while I am dreading the short term effects of these things, I know they are all part of our journey to you. So, I will try and put my brave face on as we continue waiting on the Lord for His plan to be fulfilled.

And while we wait, I will take the time to thank God for what we have in our life here and now. Today, I am so incredibly thankful for a wonderful, supportive husband who I love with all my heart. God gave me my best friend to spend the rest of my life with and I am so thankful for that. Here is what I woke up to this morning on the refrigerator and a text I received after my appointment.

So, thank you God for what you have done in our lives. Thank you God for all you have given us - wonderful families, beautiful relationships, perfect jobs for us at this moment in our life. Thank you for those things you have done that go unseen. And thank you Lord for what we know you will one day do for us. I have such a beautiful life that I don't want to take for granted. So today, while I'm waiting, "I am peaceful, I'm waiting on You, Lord. Though it's not easy but faithfully, I will wait. Yes, I will wait. I will move ahead, bold and confident, taking every step in obedience. While I'm waiting I will serve You. While I'm waiting I will worship. While I'm waiting I will not faint, I'll be running the race even while I wait.."