Stronger

 Keal went out of town this weekend for a guy's weekend with his college roommates. Which meant I got to spend the weekend at my parents' house! It was so great to be home and spend time as the five of us again! When I walked in Friday after school, I was greeted with this fabulous assortment of goodies (I have the greatest family! You are one lucky cookie to be inheriting them as your grandparents, aunt, and uncle!):

My mom and I then enjoyed dinner together and time at my dad and brother's football game. Saturday was another girl's day -- brunch out and a little bit of shopping. While out, I unfortunately found out that September is not going to be our miracle month. You are not yet on your way and it's time to start another month of treatments.

I was able to hold it together for awhile, but as always, I had my moment of completely falling apart. This whole journey is just so incredibly exhausting. The highs are wonderful, but the lows are completely devastating. And I know you are the end of these ups and downs, so it i will all be worth it some day soon. Until then, it is easy to get tired and discouraged. A person can only take so many months of hopefully waiting, just to be let down. Again.

Quickly after my meltdown, my mom and I headed to the store to get my prescriptions filled. The song, Stronger, came on in the car. As I've said before with other songs, how this song wasn't written specifically for me and this journey to you is shocking. It is just perfect.

So, through my heartache, tears, anger, and pain today, I will continue to hold on just a little bit longer. I know this is gonna make me stronger. I know this pain can't last forever...you,  my sweet one, are waiting for us on the other side of this journey!