Reasons to Be Thankful

I have found myself in a state of anger and self-pity all week. I have found myself questioning why God has us on such a difficult journey, when others have such an easy one. I have found myself angry with those who have their families without (what seems to me) true understanding of how very lucky they actually are. I have found myself asking God, why someone else and not me.

Well today, while driving home from church, I decided to snap out of this. God has a reason for everything. It is not about why someone else is pregnant and not me. It is not about whether someone understands how truly blessed they are. Keal and I need to focus on the miracle that God is working in our lives. We need to be thankful for what we have and not on what we don't or on what others have.

So, instead of complaining, I find my mood has shifted and I find myself in a spirit of praise this afternoon. Yes, I am still hurting and wanting you in my life. But, through that pain, God still deserves his praise. So, things I am thankful for...

• A beautiful fall day. This week has been a terribly rainy and dreary week. Today the sun is out, the sky is blue, and there is a beautiful breeze. While driving home from church we had the windows down just taking in the beauty of this day.
• Singing praises with Keal on the drive home from church. We had the Let Faith Arise CD in the car today. On our drive home from church the two of us were just belting it out, windows down and arms out wide. It was such a sweet moment for the two of us to share. I felt God's spirit with us as we sang the words to "Let Faith Arise," and "While I'm Waiting." I know God has a plan for us and I felt a sense of peace as we sang these songs.
• My wonderful family. Through all the ups and downs of this journey, I know I can count on my family to be there for me. To simply answer a phone call when I need to cry, to hug me when I'm down....whatever I need, they're there for me.

Even amidst the pain and anger of this journey, there are always reason to praise God!