The Waiting Game Continues

Well today was another appointment. It was time to see if the pills had worked or not. Today we would know yay or nay - yes, let's try IUI or no, IVF is the only route for us.

After getting the thumbs down back in August for IUI, I had prepared myself for the worst for this appointment. And not because I wasn't faithful, but because I was so blindsided last time. I couldn't get hit so hard this month if we were told no. I couldn't let myself go back to such a dark place...I had already been there again this week.

So I knew going in today we would hear one of three things:
1.) Femara worked - let's do IUI today
2.) Femara worked - let's do IUI sometime next week
or 3.) Femara didn't work, we'll start IVF in November

And wouldn't you know whenever we think we have it figured out, God says, "Nope, I'm the one in charge," and he throws a fourth possibility into the mix.

Turns out this was kind of an off month for my body. However, there is still one growing follicle, one more chance for IUI this month. It is still pretty small right now, but could still continue growing.

So, the waiting game continues. We go back in next Tuesday.

I left today's appointment feeling good and feeling faithful. Yes, the unknown and the wait is exhausting, but it also gives God more time to work His miracle. It gives us five more days to pray and force God's hand to be moved. It gives us five more days of hope for IUI. It gives us five more days for our faith to grow.

"I'm waiting, I'm waiting on you Lord. And I am hopeful. I'm waiting on You, Lord. Though it is painful, but patiently, I will wait."