Sweet Surprise

Well little one, today we had another doctor's appointment to see if the pill did anything again. This was a bonus month in my mind, so I had no expectations. Before the doctor came in, my mom grabbed my hand and we each prayed. I felt such peace while praying; yet caught myself fighting the urge to feel comforted. I didn't want to feel hope because I didn't want to feel disappointment. But in that moment, I know God was with us and I know He heard our prayers.

The doctor began the ultrasound and first looked at my right side. "Well darn, lots of potentials but they're all sleeping." In my mind, bummer but no real surprise; we could try again next month.

She then looked at left side. Before she said anything, I whispered, "oh wow!" There it was. Plain as day. A large and mature follicle! She smiled too, "We have a really nice one here." I began praying as she began measuring. 15 mm. It was big enough!

The next five minutes were a blur as we continued to receive good news after good news. "Okay, so Sunday, I'd like to give yourself the trigger shot and then come back Monday for IUI." I wanted to say, "Um, come again?! Do what?!' But she didn't stop there! Turns out, the shot I've been dreading can be given using a smaller needle (like the ones I've already done). It can be done in my stomach, not back, so Keal doesn't have to do it! AND she already prepared it for me! So no mixing, no giant needles, and no needing someone else to do it. I was in complete shock. Not only do we now have a little more hope than we've ever had before, but we are going to finally give this thing a shot!

I feel so incredibly blessed and overjoyed today. We have been praying so hard and so long for you. I know this doesn't guarantee you will be on your way after Monday, but it means we may get you without IVF. Had we not had last months disappointments being told we couldn't do the shots, we wouldn't have had this month's joy! I am so thankful God has heard our prayers. I am thankful for the disappointments we've had along the way so that we can celebrate this good news. It is going to be a long two or three weeks waiting to see if this worked, I am sure. But we will go forward with prayerful, faithful hearts, waiting patiently for you, our sweet one, and trusting God's perfect plan.