When I Leave the Room

I wish I had written these words myself. This song / album was written after dealing with postpartum depression. And while that isn't my experience, I can't help but feel connected to these words as I leave your room each day, leaving you in the hospital. And all I can do is hit my knees and pray that God watches over you each night that I am not by your side.

Good night
Looks like we made it through the day
The moon sighs
And I know that we're okay
 
Sleep tight
I love to watch you drift away
I would come with you but on my knees I'll stay
 
Good night
Five little fingers holding mine
Take flight
Into your dreams and lullabies
 
There's nothing more that I can do
But just fall more in love with you
And ask the angel armies to stand by
When I leave the room
 
I'm gonna fail you
I already have
Ten thousand times
I will fall down flat
 
You'll have a seat in the front row
Of everything I don't know
And all I'm trying to be
You'll see
 
Good night
There will be storms that we come through
In time
We will slay dragons me and you
 
I'll always wanna hold you tight
Keep you safe with all my might
So I will leave Jesus next to you
When I leave the room
 
And you will run ahead
As if you know the way
And I will pray more
Then one should have to pray
 
There will be words we can't take back
Silences too
And I'll be on my knees
You'll see
 
One night
When I am old and unsteady
You'll want me to fight
But I'll tell you that I'm ready
 
When there's nothing left to do
I will still be loving you
Then you'll fold your fingers into mine
And I will let Jesus hold you tight
When I leave the room