Courageous

Well, yesterday I got to begin a new mix of crazy medications. By the end of this week, I will be on six different things (yikes!). Last night, while at my parents, I introduced the first new medication into the mix.

About three hours later, and after a nap, I woke up in a crazy sweat, shaking, nauseous, and ready to faint. In the midst of this crazy reaction, it was now 11 o'clock and time for my trigger shot (notice the shaking hands. I wish this was a side effect, but it's not...I don't know why but the syringe is so much more intimidating than my nifty pen).

After a long, sleepless night, I awoke to find the headaches and dizziness haven't gone anywhere. While driving to work I was reminded, "We were made to be courageous. We were made to lead the way...The only way we'll ever stand is on our knees with lifted hands. Make us courageous. Lord, make us courageous." So, I'll put on my brave face and be courageous today. I will face this day and pray for God's comfort along the way. I keep telling myself this is all going to be worth it. And I know it will be. But, God, we need our miracle!