I love that he now knows what that means.
He hugged me a little tighter and said a prayer for you. One of my favorite things about the way Keal prays when he prays for this miracle, is that he doesn't pray selfishly. He has never told God, "We need this baby," or "We really want this baby." Instead, he always prays that God grant us this miracle so that, "We give all honor and glory to you Lord. That when we get our miracle, we can praise your name for working this miracle." I fell asleep reflecting on this thought. How wonderful, every time I look into your eyes, I will be looking into the eyes of a miracle, a gift given to us directly from God. Every time I introduce you to someone new, I will be given the perfect opportunity to shout God's goodness to us and how He choose the perfect time to give us the perfect gift. Oh little one, I cannot wait for that day. Already, I am praising God's name for this miracle that he will work in our lives.
I woke up this morning, and before I looked at the clock I tried willing it to read 11 AM. Instead, it read 3 AM along with a text from my sister. Side note: I really need to get out of the habit of reading texts in the middle of the night. I usually forget I read them and never respond to that person. But this text I did not forget. I am thankful I read it.
You and Keal have been on my mind all day long. I have prayed so much today and felt such a desire for tomorrow to come. I even sent a text to Carly and Mackenzie asking them to pray for you both tomorrow for our Miracle Monday since they've known bits here and there throughout this journey. I'm driving home from Aaron's and turned on k-love and usually I'm hesitant cause I fear I won't know any songs. But God is talking to me loud and clear, as soon as I turned it on it switched to Casting Crowns', "Praise You in the Storm." And now Sidewalk Prophets is playing and I'm a crying mess. Such a beautiful moment selfishly for me and for you both, I'm praying so hard and faithfully tonight. And I had never heard that Sidewalk Prophet's song, but thought how beautiful and relevant those lyrics were to you so I checked your Facebook to see if it had ever been a status....it was one of yours last week : )
I loved getting this beautiful experience in the middle of the night. It immediately restored my faith and helped me fall back asleep more peacefully.
As I'm preparing myself for today's appointment, I have been thinking about last October when we first did IUI. Back in October, we did not expect to be able to do IUI at all. It was our "bonus month," no shots, just pills. I feel like we are in a different place now. Everyone is now on their knees. "Lots of bold prayers going up for you today friend!" and "I've been thinking about y'all lots lately! Not sure what's going on in your world these days, but praying for you," were just two of the sweet texts I received from dear friends, lifting up the Lord's name in honor of us. We all realize how crucial this month is. This is it. Our last shot before seriously discussing IVF. I feel like this is just where God wanted us. On our knees, giving everything we have to Him. I have fully surrendered all control and am completely trusting God at this point. I know this is our month. I am so excited for today's appointment to hear how God has moved another step closer to our miracle and to you.
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