Merry Christmas

This week has been the most difficult for me emotionally. While you boys are doing beautifully, I'm starting to feel drained. The lack of sleep is starting to hit me. Having to plan my day and hospital visits around my hour and a half window between pumping is draining, when all I want is to be with you all the time! And finally, I had still been holding on to hope that you'd be home for Christmas. Reality set in this week as I had to finally accept that this wasn't going to happen. Which translates to...I've been a puddle of emotions!

However, Christmas Eve and Day turned out really nice. Your daddy and I were able to spend the morning and afternoon with you on both days. This Christmas has had us really refocus on the true purpose of Christmas. It wasn't about gifts this year - we decided not to exchange this year. It was about focusing on Christ's love.

How incredible that He willingly came to this earth to give His life for us. He is the only gift we should ever need. And yet, this year, He gave us two more gifts! Wiley and Ryan, you are the most beautiful and most precious gifts we could ever ask for. We are so blessed with two healthy little boys who are so very close to coming home. We love you very much, sweet boys!