Well, there's no going back now. Today is my last day of summer vacation...I have every intention of spending it reading outside by the pool and relaxing! But, before I could do that, I had to wait for a very important delivery. I had to be home to sign for it because it immediately needed refrigerating. I was so happy when it was delivered an hour earlier than planned (because that meant more time by the pool for me!).
As I opened the package though, I felt immediate anxiety. Partly because
I'm a chicken and have never been very brave when it comes to doctors
and needles (this experience has taught me that too! I no longer cringe when I have to have blood drawn). How crazy though that in just two days I'll be giving myself
shots at home. I'm also anxious because I know these next few weeks are
going to be one emotional roller coaster! The shots and pills I'm taking
alone are going to make me emotional. But the thought of possible
getting (or not getting) you soon makes me super emotional too. I
just wish we had the answers already. The waiting game makes me crazy!
But at least we are on the right track. We are moving forward. We are
being proactive. And someday soon, God is going to give us you!
So, off I go to the pool. I can't dwell on what is going to start happening in the next few days (I'll make myself sick with worry!). I can't dwell on whether or not we will soon get you. All I can do is continue to pray and have faith that God has a plan for us. I have to live in the present, look for the glorious moments in my life, and be grateful for what I have been given today!
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