Praying for a Miracle

Well, tonight is the eve of another doctor's appointment. Tomorrow we discuss if IVF truly is the only route for us.

As we were laying in bed, I told Keal I'm so torn - how do I know what's being faithful and what's being foolish? I have complete faith God will give you to us. I don't doubt that for a second anymore. What I do doubt / worry about is what is faithful? If we go with IVF, is that trusting that's God's plan for us to get to you? Or should we have faith that God will perform a miracle for us. Or is it foolish not to go with IVF - because even if it takes IVF to get you, I will still praise God and will still know you are our precious miracle.

I told Keal, let's pray for a miracle this month; let's trust that God will do this for us. We've always prayed for you, but I've never specifically asked God to move His hand right now. I remember a sermon my dad once preached - that we have the power to move God's hand. We have the power when we pray specifically for our needs that God will answer our prayer. Keal quickly agreed with me, "Let's pray together, every single night before we go to bed, for our miracle." I was beyond excited that it was Keal offering this idea.

So, there we were, holding hands and hugging in the dark, while Keal offered the most perfect prayer for you, our sweet and beautiful miracle. He asked God to please give you to us. He promised God that we would love you with all of our hearts. He promised God that we would bring you up in a happy, safe, loving, Christ centered home. He poured His heart out, asking God for this miracle. It was such a powerful moment for me in both this journey to you and in my marriage with Keal. I thank God for this journey as I know it is bringing Keal closer to God.

So this month we are faithfully praying for God's hand to move. This month we are completely committed to praying for our miracle!