Miracle Monday Take Two

Well, it was just one week ago today that we headed into our appointment expecting great things from God on our Miracle Monday. It was one week ago today that life changing decisions were having to be made at the spur of a moment. Life suddenly became a swirl and a typical 15 minute checkup became a 3 hour visit! It was one week ago today, that though things had not gone quite as planned, we had found God still with us on our Miracle Monday.

And here we are, one week, one surgery, twenty eggs retrieved, and fifteen embryos later...ready for our Miracle Monday, again! I know God is going to work this miracle, we just must have had Miracle Monday's switched up, that's all! We didn't realized God was going to need a couple Monday's for this great miracle. So here we are, Miracle Monday Take Two!

At the start of this journey, I had always said I didn't really want to have to go the route of IVF. Ever since I had been told I was infertile, I have felt an emptiness within me. Making a baby should be a beautiful act of love between a husband and a wife. The thought of "making a baby" in a doctor's office just broke my heart in the beginning. But at least with IUI, I could tell myself that there was still a chance that you were made by love. IVF seemed so much more calculated. So void of love.

Today, we go into the office to select the embryos we will transfer. My sweet miracle, God has already began forming you. In the beginning this seemed like a devastating thought to me. It's just not how it's supposed to be.

But I must say, as I await this appointment today, I realize how wrong I have been. Were you made the way most babies are made? No. There's no denying that. Your journey into life started a little different than most. But does that mean that you weren't made and born out of love? Absolutely not! You Little One, were made out of more love than maybe most sweet babies. You were made after years of prayers. You were made after years of sacrifice and tears. You my precious one, were made out of more love than you will ever know.

I thank God that our Miracle Monday is already upon us. I thank God that I can say with all faith believing, the end of this journey to you is in sight, and the start of a new and beautiful chapter is about to begin. I thank God that in just a few short (please go fast!) weeks we will hear wonderful news. I thank God, Little One, that you were made out of complete and pure love. I love you more than you know and can't wait until the day I finally wrap you in my arms.